30th December 1993.
She's One In A Million♥
Azirah Alus K. Ayid H. Dian Hazwani Muhd Khidhir Mohd Zaki♥ Tasneem ♥♥Wirda Izzati♥♥
“When There's Up, There's Down”
Wednesday, October 31, 2012 || 10:51 PM
" Allah will make a way, when there seems to be no way."
Alhamdulillah im back from kampong safely. However, my trip was tiring and i had a boring and sick Aidiladha ever. Well, we wont know when and how illness could attack us right. So here's the story, we're having Tahlil on one of the night, before it starts, we family prayed Maghrib together and on the 2nd rakaat i COLLAPSED. Yeah, it seems funny when i fall but only Allah knows how pain my chest /rib was that moment. I have no idea why i collapsed eventhough i already took my medications. So it seems to be a resting and sleeping week for me. Sighs.
Im not trying to be mad or putting blame.I dont even want to complain on my illness, but im tired of it. It feels like just giving up. My hearts was like " I rather sleep forever than taking this challenge to accept the pain. " But i know that life must move on. Be strong and whatnots. Its only easy to say but hard to do. True that? So i've made my mind to stop with the medications. I dont wanna depend too much on it. I will not stop praying to Allah to give me the strength. Insyaallah amin.
Syukur life has been nice to me. The people around me who gave me supports and never failed to make me laugh. Yes thank you so much. (: Especially work place, make me laugh every single moment though at times we have some arguments. Thats normal in work right. Hehes! Now school, its really damn BORING. If its not because of projects and attendance i will stay out from class. Haha! I just dont like the surroundings anymore. Some people just love giving cold shoulder and look down. Haha, its okay.. At the end of the day, allah will show us who's right and who's wrong. No point arguing or giving bad impression. It will be worsened perhaps.
Okay, i shall stop here. Goodnight people.
Alhamdulillah im back from kampong safely. However, my trip was tiring and i had a boring and sick Aidiladha ever. Well, we wont know when and how illness could attack us right. So here's the story, we're having Tahlil on one of the night, before it starts, we family prayed Maghrib together and on the 2nd rakaat i COLLAPSED. Yeah, it seems funny when i fall but only Allah knows how pain my chest /rib was that moment. I have no idea why i collapsed eventhough i already took my medications. So it seems to be a resting and sleeping week for me. Sighs.
Im not trying to be mad or putting blame.I dont even want to complain on my illness, but im tired of it. It feels like just giving up. My hearts was like " I rather sleep forever than taking this challenge to accept the pain. " But i know that life must move on. Be strong and whatnots. Its only easy to say but hard to do. True that? So i've made my mind to stop with the medications. I dont wanna depend too much on it. I will not stop praying to Allah to give me the strength. Insyaallah amin.
Syukur life has been nice to me. The people around me who gave me supports and never failed to make me laugh. Yes thank you so much. (: Especially work place, make me laugh every single moment though at times we have some arguments. Thats normal in work right. Hehes! Now school, its really damn BORING. If its not because of projects and attendance i will stay out from class. Haha! I just dont like the surroundings anymore. Some people just love giving cold shoulder and look down. Haha, its okay.. At the end of the day, allah will show us who's right and who's wrong. No point arguing or giving bad impression. It will be worsened perhaps.
Okay, i shall stop here. Goodnight people.
& Oh, i miss my boyfriend. I hope he does too? ♥
Sunday, October 21, 2012 || 3:27 PM
Happy 20th Birthday BabyGirl NurulFareha Jailani! ♥
Yay dah besar panjang dia! Hehe. Thank you for appreciating the surprise and TERKEJUT KAN?
Yay dah besar panjang dia! Hehe. Thank you for appreciating the surprise and TERKEJUT KAN?
Nyahaha! May your future will be full of happiness and will always turn bright. Semoga juga Allah berkati doa doa mu ye kawan. Appart of it, i wish you and MafaziAiman to be together, grow old together and have cute babies like me. :D INSYAALLAH! Sayang you lah makcik. You're a friend who's sometimes my Blog and Diary cause you hafta listen to what i gotta say. Bear with my anger and crap. I know. Know too much. Aha! Sometimes you just get tired but you still share me your ears. Awwhness! Loveeyou babygirl. Have fun later on with Mr bean. Xoxo ! ♥
So yesterday, it was a SATUR-DATE with boyfriend. It was a good one the weather err kinda cranky. Haha! Because we're stuck in Marina bay sands for like 2 hours? End up decided to head back to east. Haha! But, we're early to catch a movie called " Hit and Run" night time. It was a funny and crazy movie. Been laughing my ass out eventhough i've been coughing and making noise in the theatre. Hee sorry! Thank you boyfriend for yesterday. (:
Sayang you full lah honey ♥
Weekends passed by too fast. I feel like today was saturday but sadded, its sunday already /: Meaning that tomorrow schoooool. Im not keeping track with assignments. Sighs! Plus projects which i've yet to start. Ahhhh i dont wanna have the stress again! ]: Im tired of it yakno. And more, i'll be going back to kampong on wednesday for Hari raya haji MAYBE. Why i said maybe is because i dont feel like going. So i'll see my mood? Hmmms /: I love meeting my cousins but i hate the long journey .
Im still not 100% well yet. My bodyache is still there, and my breathing isnt that good. Im kinda worried if i will be sick there. Whatever it is, will pray for the best.
Okay I shall go and do my prayers now.
So yesterday, it was a SATUR-DATE with boyfriend. It was a good one the weather err kinda cranky. Haha! Because we're stuck in Marina bay sands for like 2 hours? End up decided to head back to east. Haha! But, we're early to catch a movie called " Hit and Run" night time. It was a funny and crazy movie. Been laughing my ass out eventhough i've been coughing and making noise in the theatre. Hee sorry! Thank you boyfriend for yesterday. (:
Sayang you full lah honey ♥
Weekends passed by too fast. I feel like today was saturday but sadded, its sunday already /: Meaning that tomorrow schoooool. Im not keeping track with assignments. Sighs! Plus projects which i've yet to start. Ahhhh i dont wanna have the stress again! ]: Im tired of it yakno. And more, i'll be going back to kampong on wednesday for Hari raya haji MAYBE. Why i said maybe is because i dont feel like going. So i'll see my mood? Hmmms /: I love meeting my cousins but i hate the long journey .
Im still not 100% well yet. My bodyache is still there, and my breathing isnt that good. Im kinda worried if i will be sick there. Whatever it is, will pray for the best.
Okay I shall go and do my prayers now.
Daaaaaaaa ♥
P/s: Boyfriend looks like Aaron Aziz yesterday for a glance. HAHAHA i know its epic. I think i watched Adam dan Hawa too much.
Ok lupchu baby! ♥♥
P/s: Boyfriend looks like Aaron Aziz yesterday for a glance. HAHAHA i know its epic. I think i watched Adam dan Hawa too much.
Ok lupchu baby! ♥♥
Wednesday, October 17, 2012 || 10:59 PM
" The best is yet to come."
Hi bloggers, today is the 4th day of having fever. So dad decide to bring me to the doctor. I've got another 2 days of MC. So the doctor explained to me that there's infection and virus in my body. -.- Plus im having Low blood pressure and told me to eat more meat. Gosh, cant you see this size and you want me to eat more? Aiyamah ! And the hatest part is, if i were to collapse again, he suggest me to go hospital. NO WAY. I had enough of Hospitals services. And i promise to myself that i will not want to be warded again like i used to. Please! I cant bear the injections and all the irritating machine. Ahh no no! I think im phobia to those things now. Phew. However, praying hard to be well soon. I started to miss school environment and of course my babygirls. Im sure they have tons of stories to share. Heheh! Well, thats what girls are for. :D
I've been spending my week watching ADAM DAN HAWA drama. It was a damn good show please. And Ain, if you hate Adam, fine pass it to me! AHAHAH . Okay its only a drama syifa -.- Well, it touches my heart after they shoot at Mekkah . Its like, Beautiful! One day i would like to step there with a sincere heart. Insyaallah! So Adam is really meant for Hawa. Same goes to the rest, We're all meant for someone. Saying about that, i have something to share. Its in malay, well im not really good in translating to english. Hehe !
" Biarpun kita tidak boleh melawan takdir, bukan bermaksud takdir tidak boleh diubah. Yang dilihat bukan existence tetapi essence. Pasrah dan redha akan sesuatu harus diolah dengan baik yakin dengan ikhlas bukan terpaksa. "
So i guess that i wont be giving up in anything that im doing. Redha and tawakkal will be the key in my life. Whatever happens, is something new for us to learn. Im sure i will lead a good life insyaallah. Dear family, friends and Love of my life, Syifa sayang kamu semua seikhlas hati. ♥
Hi bloggers, today is the 4th day of having fever. So dad decide to bring me to the doctor. I've got another 2 days of MC. So the doctor explained to me that there's infection and virus in my body. -.- Plus im having Low blood pressure and told me to eat more meat. Gosh, cant you see this size and you want me to eat more? Aiyamah ! And the hatest part is, if i were to collapse again, he suggest me to go hospital. NO WAY. I had enough of Hospitals services. And i promise to myself that i will not want to be warded again like i used to. Please! I cant bear the injections and all the irritating machine. Ahh no no! I think im phobia to those things now. Phew. However, praying hard to be well soon. I started to miss school environment and of course my babygirls. Im sure they have tons of stories to share. Heheh! Well, thats what girls are for. :D
I've been spending my week watching ADAM DAN HAWA drama. It was a damn good show please. And Ain, if you hate Adam, fine pass it to me! AHAHAH . Okay its only a drama syifa -.- Well, it touches my heart after they shoot at Mekkah . Its like, Beautiful! One day i would like to step there with a sincere heart. Insyaallah! So Adam is really meant for Hawa. Same goes to the rest, We're all meant for someone. Saying about that, i have something to share. Its in malay, well im not really good in translating to english. Hehe !
" Biarpun kita tidak boleh melawan takdir, bukan bermaksud takdir tidak boleh diubah. Yang dilihat bukan existence tetapi essence. Pasrah dan redha akan sesuatu harus diolah dengan baik yakin dengan ikhlas bukan terpaksa. "
So i guess that i wont be giving up in anything that im doing. Redha and tawakkal will be the key in my life. Whatever happens, is something new for us to learn. Im sure i will lead a good life insyaallah. Dear family, friends and Love of my life, Syifa sayang kamu semua seikhlas hati. ♥
Monday, October 15, 2012 || 10:06 PM
"Sometimes when you least expect it, good things happen. "
Hakeem Shah never fails to putt a smile on my face. Haha! If only he's a grown up, im sure he will be listening to me eh. However this budak tembam makes my body aches! So heavy youknow. Aha! Kak syifa sayang you full ok baby!
Im down with fever today. Have been stuck in bed. Only get up for prayers. This time it seems to be so bad. Bodyache plus migraine. Medications doesnt help actually. Sigh, well if it gets worst then i shall head down to 24 hrs clinic eh. Private doctor seems to be so expensive seh. Setakat consultation. Pfft! My last check temperature was 40.2 , so is that ok or not ? AHA. Sorry im not really updated on the temperature thingy. But well, i will not cry or complain cause im sure that Allah gave us illness because he simply wants our small sins to be washed away insyaallah. Whenever we're sick and gets better soon its like we're a newborn baby so i shall make a new book!
Im not faking my smile, im trying to smile again though the road still rough. Someone told me that if we gave up, the only thing we will feel is REGRET. So remember? Regret isnt in my dictionary. Whenever we loses something or someone, we will gain something else. " Ada hikmah disebalik nya. " Something like that eh. :D When i sat back and think, if im having a problem, someone else there has a bigger one than mine right? So i should be thankful for i've got now. Dear Allah, i dont ask you to lessen my burden or problems but to give me the strength to overcome challenges. Insyaallah.
Dear brother Hendra, I thank you for always being my listening ears and a shoulder to cry on. Eventhough you're so busy, you spare a time for me. I will never forget our friendship for this 5 years. Now i want you to read this, eventhough your life isnt going well, remember that Allah is there for you. Pray to him insyallah he will be the best person to help you in anyway. If she leaves you, always remember that there's someone better for you one fine day. Dont regret losing her cause regret brings you nowhere. Be strong as ever, put away your tears. Life moves on. Start afresh. Memories do stay, same goes to life. Chin up! Much Love, your sissy ♥
And boyfriend, I miss you to the fullest.
Be safe honey. ♥
Till we meet.
Im down with fever today. Have been stuck in bed. Only get up for prayers. This time it seems to be so bad. Bodyache plus migraine. Medications doesnt help actually. Sigh, well if it gets worst then i shall head down to 24 hrs clinic eh. Private doctor seems to be so expensive seh. Setakat consultation. Pfft! My last check temperature was 40.2 , so is that ok or not ? AHA. Sorry im not really updated on the temperature thingy. But well, i will not cry or complain cause im sure that Allah gave us illness because he simply wants our small sins to be washed away insyaallah. Whenever we're sick and gets better soon its like we're a newborn baby so i shall make a new book!
Im not faking my smile, im trying to smile again though the road still rough. Someone told me that if we gave up, the only thing we will feel is REGRET. So remember? Regret isnt in my dictionary. Whenever we loses something or someone, we will gain something else. " Ada hikmah disebalik nya. " Something like that eh. :D When i sat back and think, if im having a problem, someone else there has a bigger one than mine right? So i should be thankful for i've got now. Dear Allah, i dont ask you to lessen my burden or problems but to give me the strength to overcome challenges. Insyaallah.
Dear brother Hendra, I thank you for always being my listening ears and a shoulder to cry on. Eventhough you're so busy, you spare a time for me. I will never forget our friendship for this 5 years. Now i want you to read this, eventhough your life isnt going well, remember that Allah is there for you. Pray to him insyallah he will be the best person to help you in anyway. If she leaves you, always remember that there's someone better for you one fine day. Dont regret losing her cause regret brings you nowhere. Be strong as ever, put away your tears. Life moves on. Start afresh. Memories do stay, same goes to life. Chin up! Much Love, your sissy ♥
And boyfriend, I miss you to the fullest.
Be safe honey. ♥
Till we meet.
Wednesday, October 10, 2012 || 8:42 PM
" I smile and act like nothing's wrong. I call it putting shit aside and being strong."
Life is being tough these days. I dont even know if im really being strong or faking it. With no one by my side who would listen and be there for me. I just need some attention. I need my space. I need my love ones. Why cant you people just give a little understanding ? They see me smile and laugh every single day but deep down i need you people. I need to share my things. Seriously, if i had a friend like TED of course i wont bother you people. I know everyone has a life to lead. But they need a friend to lean on right? Same goes to me. Im a normal girl just like you people.
The sky is getting rough. Im not able to handle this by myself but im trying. Im not an attention seeker but i need the love and comfort too. I just feel like leaving this disaster life or place maybe? I dont want to go school if i get cold shoulders. Going home and listen to parents babbling. Going out .. nahh thats it. Its been awhile since i smile widely and sincerely. I've been out alone every single day reflecting on what have i done. Yup, Challenges by Allah. I'll have to face it. But, its not fair. Im a girl who WANTS and NEEDS to be HAPPY.
I just wish that the sky will turn out to be brighter like before. Im sick and tired of losing my grip, wasting all the tears every night. Crying to bed. I want my happy life back Allah. Just give me this one chance and i'll promise i'll make a change to it. I used to be this quiet side of me and i've manage to make a change, and now you're testing me again. Im afraid if i will giveup one day and never get up again. Im afraid if my past haunt me and this time it will be by myself unlike previously. You send me the greatest gift.. Im sorry. I cant continue this.
"This feelin that we feel, tell me that its real, don't let love come just, to pass us by.
Try, is all we have to do, its up to me and you to make this special love, last forever more. "
♥
Tuesday, October 2, 2012 || 10:30 PM
" I wish I could enjoy my life just like what Spongebob and Patrick always do together. "
I miss Blaze camp 2. I miss Mawaii Eco camp. I miss the people there. As for now, i just feel like staying there and dont come back. I feel peace down there. Huge difference living in Singapore which full of rush, pressure and stress. Damn, i feel like CRYING OUT LOUD. Enough of giving me problems please ): Im so tired, really tired.
I had enough caring so much about others when people just dont appreciate me. I dont want any return but the least is to appreciate me. This mind gonna burst with this kind of situation. I have a heart too. If it will only be me who bites on my own lips, then how about you people?
Yes, im not giving my 100 percent but im sure that i've gave the best. Yet you people were not happy. I admit, i am a straightforward person, when i dont like i will speak up. BUT that doesnt mean i have something againts you people. How should i go to school, every morning when i wake up, i have this cranky feeling just because of you people stupid attitude.
Im so sorry, i just hafta let this out here. Im tired of keeping too much. Showing to the rest that im a little happy kid going around disturbing and making noise. Hey, im a human too. Thats only a part of me. You people have problems, i have it too. But i dont show it cause why, there's nothing to do with you people. Well, yes i bet that my name has been labelled huh. But hell yeah, i dont really care cause i am gonna show EVERYONE that i will and i can stand on my feet with a successful results.
Stop daring me, you will REGRET.
I had enough caring so much about others when people just dont appreciate me. I dont want any return but the least is to appreciate me. This mind gonna burst with this kind of situation. I have a heart too. If it will only be me who bites on my own lips, then how about you people?
Yes, im not giving my 100 percent but im sure that i've gave the best. Yet you people were not happy. I admit, i am a straightforward person, when i dont like i will speak up. BUT that doesnt mean i have something againts you people. How should i go to school, every morning when i wake up, i have this cranky feeling just because of you people stupid attitude.
Im so sorry, i just hafta let this out here. Im tired of keeping too much. Showing to the rest that im a little happy kid going around disturbing and making noise. Hey, im a human too. Thats only a part of me. You people have problems, i have it too. But i dont show it cause why, there's nothing to do with you people. Well, yes i bet that my name has been labelled huh. But hell yeah, i dont really care cause i am gonna show EVERYONE that i will and i can stand on my feet with a successful results.
Stop daring me, you will REGRET.
Its only the second day of school for this semester and i can feel the pressure. Worst is that, this time a BIGGER project with only 3 manshow. So you guys think we can do it? Well i think we can. Just that we need to buckup on our Last minute work. Haha. It runs in our friendship. Appart of that, i've yet planning on my Blaze project. I guess i shall not regret in being a leader as im the only girl. Pfft!
Okay lets stop talking about school. Before i get sick of it.
Life? I shall say, it feels good with the fisherians. I've been looking forward to work. The reason why i wanna stay with this job is because of the services and the PEOPLE. They are awesome. Im touched that even we knew for a few months, they gave a full support to me and always bring me up when im down. Looking forward for the chalet fisherians!
I miss boyfriend. Thats all i can say.
The rest, i shall just leave it to Allah.
Goodnight ♥