“When There's Up, There's Down”

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Hey there guys.

So well, weekends been not bad so far. Even I had to drag myself to work yesterday morning teehee.
Life will be good when you're surrounded with good people. True that. So 1st week of school was done. This coming week will be a slightly relaxing as school on falls on Monday and Tuesday. But be back on the next next week with 4 days straight class. Gotta get mentally and physically ready.

Sometimes, I asked myself, why am I trying to convince myself that things are fine and everything Is alright. Yeah I mean, if its meant to be it will be right. But the answer is that, because im afraid. Afraid of losing.. by the love ones. Honestly, insecurities is just too suckish. Everyone holds it, but im feeling that im feeling too much.



Isz'zuan have been the best .. Not trying to compare, but im grateful, thankful and all the words that goes the same meaning . To really have him. Challenges? Everyone been through it. Yes Actions speaks louder than words, but your words blew me somehow. You tried, so hard to change even though some things are meant to stay. I don't ask too much. Im glad that we're building our relationship well .. Just stay, hold my hand and we will go through it. Amin

I miss our old times. We look cute in it. (:




It is so hard when you're with a bunch of girls not trying to talk much or furthermore share something you try not to. It runs in the girls blood I bet. However talking to the girls just now about what and how I feel on some disturbing situation kinda great. Its like, I've been keeping to myself with no one knows.. The urge of bursting, but whatever. Remember ignore is the medicine to every haters.

Living in this world is so hard that people almost gave up. Yes, they can say " DONT GIVE UP" but were they in our shoes? No they don't feel what feel and they don't go through what we've gone through. Enough said, talk is CHEAP. Difficult to trust on others words.

Sometimes, I asked and reflect myself.. Why am i encountering this kind of situation? Did i ever done things that im going through now? Like people said, KARMA BITES. But it doesn't relate.. Being too nice but going through hard times? Neh only Allah have the answer to that. Ill just pray that one day it will all be worth my time and effort.

Im just a human, i have feelings too. I did mistakes. I changed and so on.
So what are they ? Telling or showing that they are perfect and that is why they can judge and assume things? Come on, you're a human too. Just the same in Allah's eyes. So is your judgement really matters ?

Okay i shall just keep on ignoring. Insyallah things will go right. Amin ..

Salam humans. (:




School just started yesterday night.
The good part is there's no Exams for this module! Just some 20% test.
But, im gonna be loaded with presentations and reports.
Its okay, telling to myself that everything will all be worth it. Trying not to repeat the same mistakes like how I did to Econs. This sems lecturers seems fun to  be with. Especially today, Reports and Business Communications Lecturer, Mr Paul. He's Caucasian and dayum he is so funny that im looking forward to every Wednesday class.
And its not really about his looks. He look kinda like those guys from Gags. HAHAHA!

Alright, work was so far so good. Still manageable, most probably because all bosses aren't in the office. Hehehe... Alhamdulillah slowly im trying to get use to the environment and be close to my colleagues. Especially Filza, she is sucha nice lady. Tbh, when we judge badly on someone at the first sight, seems to be the nicest person to us huh.. Hmms.


Oh wait, I almost forget to share this... HOLIDAY WAS AWSUUUUUUUUM! It should be longer. 3 days totally aren't enough .. The themepark the sceneries caught my heart. Furthermore my boyfriend tagged along.. heheh its just too fun with my love ones. Honey made me happy throughout the journey and I feel really blessed please. I hope it wont be the last. Looking forward to next holidays! Probably end on the year.. hehe.

Anyway, im glad that I finally understand and applies the word IGNORE and MOVE ON.
In this selfish world, only your parents wants to see you happy.
Friends, yeah there are good friends but however they want to be higher that you. You see, I don't see any point of them badmouthing, twist and turn stories about me. Judge me bad, when they don't even know me well.

Making me jealous by avoiding me? Do you know that I am trying to avoid you people. They said, less friends, less drama. Totally agree on that line. I wish the best for you people, and when I don't probe your life, never probe my life.
Don't be humble in front of people or social. Be humble to yourself first..

Okay I am very happy with the life im leading. Alhamdulillah Allah listens to my prayers all these while. Bit by bit im trying to be better.. Insyallah.

And truthfully, Allah sent me Isz'zuan to make me into someone better.. (:

Goodnight and Asallamualaikum.







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