Yes, i missed you. I missed us. I missed those days. 

Growing up aint like what i think when i was in pre school. All i ever thought was being a princess to my parents. Whatever i want, i'll get it. And even imagine of being a boss of any companies. Dayum, its totally different to reality. 

All i did now is work and school. I always told myself, its okay. Everything will all be worth it. But looking at the other side, it aint gettin better. Sigh.. Life. 

Being an adult is so stressful that you always have to takecare of people's heart when your heart is aching. I gave too much that end up hurting myself. Allah, to you i turn to. Give me the strength in whatever situation you gave insyallah.. 

I am tired and i totally had enough of giving in and making the first move. 

Only Allah i can turn to. Alhamdulillah.. 😌

Good morning saturday! Finally can wake up extra late. Hehe🙊 However i is so happy that yaai is staying with us every weekends! Im so blessed to sleep with him. Taking care of him at his weakest point somehow makes me wanna cry but i gotta be strong and for him to move on. Furthermore he's sleeping with me. Yes i do have sleepless night because i have to check on him if he needs to go to the toilet. But thats what i love and want the most. 

The last time i did was to my late nenek. Nenek, i miss you too much. If only you're still here with me, i'll share everything with you like i used to. 😔 

I couldnt understand people who still have their grandparents and doesnt give attention to em. Im here beggin to have my nenek back. Sigh pie. 

Okay so lets get up and have fun before weekdays come again! 😘

Can someone elaborate the meaning of Busy? Everyone's busy. I am way busy as well. But have i ever push you away and ignore you even for a minute? 

Dayum, who am i siak. When i changed for good. It seems like nothing and unappreciated. Fugg k. 

Ok fine, i have better things yeah. Great. 

I miss my holidays. I miss my little angels Along and Angah. If only i could bring them home.. Loneliness wouldnt be in my dictionary. 😣 They are the most cutest and sweetest siblings i've ever seen. I would want to have such juniors . 😍 Aaminn. 

Well yesterday , a movie date. Watched Brick mansions, and throughout the movie, i feel like Paul walker is still alive. Until the end of the movie, they showed his picture with " Loving if Memory " woa, it breaks my heart a little. Well people come and def they will go. 

Afterall, thank you baby for the treat. Hehe🙊 I honestly hafta admit that my mood is sucha bitch. For a moment im fine, and then i get carried away. Whats wrong mayne. Ok whatever, it only happens at times. 😅

Its already May. Time really really flies. It feels like just a month ago i've celebrate new years eve. Time flies but plans is still stuck. I dont know when will it happen.. Sigh. 

Im still thinking if i should say. Im just afraid if it really affects both party. I dont wanna lose or neither do i wanna hurt them. Oh Allah, show me the right way and may it be helpful. Insyallah. Amin (: 

My life and my days.. Only lives with one thing, "move on" even if my heart hurts. 

Imperfection. Who's perfect anyway? Nothing and no one. So why judge ? 

Okay its gonna be monday blues tomorrow. Im not looking forward to work . Dayum, why must weekends be 2 days only ! Perrrrgh . Okay on a better note still on school holidays. Totally not looking forward on results day. Siggghhh pie ! 

Okay gotta get myself a nap. Toodles.